i don’t see trolls. i see neighbors, lawyers, politicians, news anchors. I don’t see trolls i see relatives, teachers, business people. i don’t see trolls i see engineers, students, architects. i don’t see trolls i see shopkeepers, journalists, curators. i don’t see trolls i see “feminists,” gay men, conservatives, liberals. i don’t see trolls i see terror. i feel terror. there is an ongoing state of emergency against gender non-conforming people. at every level — judicially, legislatively, socially, politically, culturally, economically, epistemologically, ontologically — we are being targeted. do not diminish the persecution we face as “a few bad apples,” it is, rather, the roots of the tree itself. violence against us is the foundation of modern gender. i do not deserve this wrath. no one does. it’s not that i am inadequate, it’s that they are indoctrinated. it’s not that i am brave, it’s that they are complicit. there’s a difference.
